My Grandma Alar is dying. She's had dementia for at least 7 years now. She's had congestive heart failure for many years. She now has stage 4 kidney failure. She's pretty much stopped eating and drinking. It's just a matter of days now.
Myrl Minerva Alar is an amazing woman. She raised 5 fabulous kids in very tough times. She was an amazing example of a strong and smart woman for me. She is a real role model. I'm lucky to have her and be related to her.
About 9 years ago, I had a chance to get to know her better, when I went to my cousin Sara's graduation. We shared a room, and I got a chance to spend time alone with her for the first time in my life. A year later, she came to visit me in Miami, after my cousin's wedding and before visiting my Great Uncle. It was amazing to hear stories of how she meet my Grandpa and how much she loved him. I wouldn't trade any of the alone time with my Grandma for anything!
It hit me today that she will be dying soon. Greg asked me how I was doing, and the tears started to fall for the first time. I didn't want to do anything today. I was exhausted and drained, but like Greg suggested, a little workout might do me good.
I really didn't want to go for a ride, because it give me too much time to think. However, I really didn't want to leave my phone behind. So, I went for a bike ride. It wasn't going to be for very long. I hit 6 miles and cried a few tears, but I got it back together. It was going well, so I figured 20 miles wasn't out of the question.
When all was said and done, I did 25.2 miles in 1:56! I feel very good about the ride, but now I'm completely exhausted. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.
Myrl Minerva Alar is an amazing woman. She raised 5 fabulous kids in very tough times. She was an amazing example of a strong and smart woman for me. She is a real role model. I'm lucky to have her and be related to her.
About 9 years ago, I had a chance to get to know her better, when I went to my cousin Sara's graduation. We shared a room, and I got a chance to spend time alone with her for the first time in my life. A year later, she came to visit me in Miami, after my cousin's wedding and before visiting my Great Uncle. It was amazing to hear stories of how she meet my Grandpa and how much she loved him. I wouldn't trade any of the alone time with my Grandma for anything!
It hit me today that she will be dying soon. Greg asked me how I was doing, and the tears started to fall for the first time. I didn't want to do anything today. I was exhausted and drained, but like Greg suggested, a little workout might do me good.
I really didn't want to go for a ride, because it give me too much time to think. However, I really didn't want to leave my phone behind. So, I went for a bike ride. It wasn't going to be for very long. I hit 6 miles and cried a few tears, but I got it back together. It was going well, so I figured 20 miles wasn't out of the question.
When all was said and done, I did 25.2 miles in 1:56! I feel very good about the ride, but now I'm completely exhausted. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day.
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